Write a letter to:

Day 1 — Your Best Friend
Day 2 — Your Crush
Day 3 — Your parents
Day 4 — Your sibling (or closest relative)
Day 5 — Your dreams
Day 6 — A stranger
Day 7 — Your Ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush
Day 8 — Your favorite internet friend
Day 9 — Someone you wish you could meet
Day 10 — Someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to
Day 11 — A Deceased person you wish you could talk to
Day 12 — The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain
Day 13 — Someone you wish could forgive you
Day 14 — Someone you’ve drifted away from
Day 15 — The person you miss the most
Day 16 — Someone that’s not in your state/country
Day 17 — Someone from your childhood
Day 18 — The person that you wish you could be
Day 19 — Someone that pesters your mind—good or bad
Day 20 — The one that broke your heart the hardest
Day 21 — Someone you judged by their first impression
Day 22 — Someone you want to give a second chance to
Day 23 — The last person you kissed
Day 24 — The person that gave you your favorite memory
Day 25 — The person you know that is going through the worst of times
Day 26 — The last person you made a pinky promise to
Day 27 — The friendliest person you knew for only one day
Day 28 — Someone that changed your life
Day 29 — The person that you want tell everything to, but too afraid to
Day 30 — Your reflection in the mirror

what T/B means?

I was scanning houses for sale on the internet, and i came across the description ‘T/B’. I was like— stuck, analyzing… eyebrows met. WHAT?

OH yeah, one description said —’toilet and bath’… well, duh?! I know what THAT is, just forgot to cross my mind. pfff! ehehehe.

TOILET AND BATH: thats the usual bathroom setup we have here in the philippines. 

I remembered lolo (grandpa) told us on his first visit in Zamboanga, that he rarely bathe cause it was cold where he lives(alaska),  and that they need heater to warm the water.

We dont warm our water here… well some part of the country need to warm their water during cold days. and yes, almost all the hotels here have water heater system installed in every room, how did I know this? ahahaha. done some research LOL) 

So I was thinking- maybe, if youre not from here, you might be wondering what our bathroom setup is? well its usually like this

toilet and bath… what you see here is the the room where you take your dump and the one where you take a bath. the lighted room over there is the latter.

usually we install shower on wall in the bathroom, but we dont use it often… what we use is a pail and a dipper. 

 we also install toilet bowl that has flush system, but again we just use a pail and a dipper with that.

Some of the homes, like the old master’s bathroom we have, however are like this>> (google images)

  *we just install this shower heater near the bathtub, then take shower on the bathtub rightaway, just hard to clean bathtub afterwards, the soap suds and ringful of hair and dirt on the drain. ew.. our home is on top of the hill, and we have cold mornings… so we have to have this.

how to deal?

“….. Life is so stressful sometimes, i wish i could just leave everything behind and live the dreams i always wish i had.”

I became a poet that day… I go out and say thank you to all that I see and like. its a wonderful feeling.

Now — I am losing it. I am becoming the ungrateful bitch that I hated. ehehehe.

I hate complaining… I hear that on my husband all the time. especially hating it when he blasted it before going to sleep and / or during cuddle time! grrrr. it makes my day –BLAHHHHND. He’s not the only one. I can be guilty with this too. sometimes. LOL (deny effect)

Hypocrisy? To you. I prefer to think of it as a ‘good upbringing’.

to call my own

I would love to design my own house and perhaps I will when we get one.  But for now, all I can do is to imagine and dream it up in my head. Yesterday afternoon, we went to Glorietta mall in the HOME ZONE area… I was inspired by their wood design. Some showcase look better because of their lighting effect. Lights can really do good in a room. I poined it out to my husband (who is forced to listened to everything that I have to say on that time cause hed rahter be in the entertaiment system area). I tend to lean towards the minimalistic contemporary asian design. I like it clean and easy to clean set of furnitures and linens.

I wouldnt like furnitures that occupy the room much. It’ll not be called a room if it doenst have a room, just bunch of old junks that you dont need, gifts from your mother, friends, birthday, wedding, etc.. and I guess they would understand why. and besides, Im still clumsy and big space for me is a big thing. 

next big thing for me is contemporary asian. i like the wood/hemp work of the furniture and its practicality. I like to put some bonsai it more asian 

in this picture, its a classic example of contemporary asian. the divider looks like a japanese wall right? and the furniture here is modern but it looks a bit uncomfy.   i like the open space however, I also like the idea of light coming from the outside making the room looks spacious and sleek. these pictures are taken from google by the way. 

  i also love the combination of indoor and outdoor, i may need to do some research though if i m planning to have this design, cause i have to consider storms and thieves. LOL

  i would like to paint the walls darker then put some light treatment on it. then voila! 

hmmm. i just wish i have lots and lots of money. hmmm. TTFN!

my day… close to its end

Is it sunday already?  It doesn’t seem like— time has flown by– so fast when you dont have a job. Everybody else else is working. this is not good! ahahah. just woke up early this noon, and probably end my usual sunday in the middle of the night, wasting my time waiting for GG host to start the game.

some shitty poetry uv mine

 QUEEN OF PAIN

Pain drums my heart now…
Sending echoes of screams

and ripples-  of darkness to my soul
Like a distant song that comes to me in my dreams— or

by that very beat and rhythm of the voodoo drums

played by the dark kings of the fire

The Queen of Pain crazily dance around my head

in my chest…
in my heart.
- dancing around  the bonfire of my hate and disgust.

 
Throbbing so quickly now

I am defenseless.

Surrendering to the overwhelming pain
from the taste of the poison that I have created. 

It doesn’t make sense anymore throwing punches to the air
Nothing… wasting… dying…

I am screaming now- silently… waiting.

The Queen of Pain deceives me again.

lulled me to sleep.

…

i love monet’s style of painting

 
(more…)

e.AXS COM: the first callcenter in Zamboanga City! wohooo!

October 20, 2009

 When we were summoned by my husband’s family to go back home from Manila … I was in a ‘bitter-sweet’ mode. I was sad because I gave up our independence and a good paying job. SWEET: because I miss waking up in morning with my husband, miss watching my favorite TV series that are not on VCDs yet, no more work related stress,  and I miss not being in Manila, period.

 And so we went back home, selling the things we have in our apartment cheap!, then off we go. Manny was so excited to go home~ he wants us to travel via plane rather than on sea. I prefer to travel on sea because you still have a chance to survive. lol

first in Zamboanga City for 2 weeks then to Davao (accompanying family friend to buy a 2nd hand pajero) then to Cotabato for the whole month of Rmadhan. Davao is soo big. We need to have a road map since abe (dad-in-law), still young in new Davao, we lost our way most of the time.

During our stay in Cotabato City we were informed by our family back in Zamboanga City, that there is already a call center operating in Tetuan, Zamboanga city. So I send application letters and resumes. My father in law was having a hard time looking for this building, along Natividad Street. But eventually, my resumes were said to be received~ however, there were no reply from them.

After that we went back to Zamboanga City to convince mom to visit our grandparents from Alaska. We went to Iligan City with mom, my brother with his wife and Manny via bus. We ate a very large pizza, and the ukay ukay there was an experience!

The night before fiesta in ILIGAN CITY, E-AXS texted me, it was almost 11pm, sayinh that they’re hiring the next day and that they will start the interview 6pm. So I told everybody about IT.

 it was hard saying that to my grandparents because I know that they miss us and that they want more time with us, but they are the ones who said that I dont have to ignore the opportunity.

And so- that time, I was scrambling with our things, put everything inside our bags, the wet towels and slippers in another bag. checked for whatever that were missing: none. so we said our goodbyes.

Lolo and Uncle Edwin escorted us to the terminal… Fortunately, there’s a bus going to Zamboanga City, almost full! ahahaha. we were on the back of the bus. Manny knew that I easily got nauseous… So he bought me a pill, forgot the name, for my future nausea mode. But because I was excited- I did’nt sleep… which is unusual for me cos I sleep a lot in our car when it is beyond 30 minutes. zzzzzzzZZ *ngork!

E-AXS is a call center, finally found the building after 3 rounds in Natividad street. Almost got myself late. Still perspiring…. I went up on top of the building were applicants also wondering what the hell they are doing there. Still out of breath I asked to one of the people there standing on the balcony if the interview already started, he said not yet.

The room where i was interviewed, was the actual production floor. It was cold and well… cool enough to be called a call center. unlike what Ive seen outside- it looks like a big 4-storey-house (you will never know if this is IT until youve asked).

 I got the job finally, thinking that I was the weakest link, since all of the other applicants are with the business for years and years. Some who were hired are those who speak fluent chavacano, for their spanish accounts.

FollowUP: on E-AXS

November 13, 2009

I gotta lot of emails in responds to my blog entitled, E-AXS COMM: the first callcenter in Zamboanga City! wohooo!, *OMG-OMG im flattered*.

 All of them are currently working in a call center, in manila… they’re Zamboanguenos, Basilenos, or from somewhere near here. They love Zamboanga City, “There’s no place like home…” ika nga. (I know how they feel)… the food, beaches, their friends and their families.

 me and the guys… 

They wanted to know more about E-AXS,

SO…. here goes…

ACCOUNTS: the center currently hold three campaigns. All outbound and it involved selling… Don’t tell me about what are the name of the companies, or what they are selling. I think we are not allowed to disclose such info. *LOL*

there are future accounts coming in next year… and are inbound (that’s what we heard). I was supposed to be in an Autralian account, the interviewer told us, but after two weeks from my interview i was called in to be in a different account. a sales account, and it’s outbound (double yikes!).

PAY: If you needed money, this is not your time yet, the company is still new. I am still on the training for two weeks, and the pay is also in training, LOL. The earlier batches already receive their pay and its fair enough to be called such. so ill be giving you a range > it’s around 10K. In fairness, it’s good enough, since we are on a “provincial rate” area.

HOW TO APPLY: they want you to apply with your resumes personally. Since they have a lot of agents already waiting to be called, or as they say- floating… They are their priorities… (I think)

PLACE: It’s on Natividad St., Tetuan.
having a problem finding the place? Not a problem. Just Ask.

Fortunately it is near our Tetuan Police Substation…. go ask someone in the police station as to where is the RR tower.

And there you go.

EMPTY

December 5, 2009

This day, this very morning… we got laid off from this company, me, ana, and matt on our simple account. WELL… they told us that we’re not terminated- but we’ll be in a “floating” status. (…some paragraphs are deleted requested by the blogger)

I already have the gut feeling that we will GET this, I was not in the mood last night. I haven’t taken a shower yet for the night, just got out of bed and dress. Then wear my ’sulk-mode’. 

After our lunch break, (the lunch was great though! OUR last supper… that was when the Ateneo held their annual-alumni mett, i dunno. we just ate a couple of hotdogs, Ana, Matt, Len, & Mmy Lani with Dunkin Coffee)

~I have written all my callback numbers on a sheet of paper and cleaned my desk, cos i know whatll happen, this certain something something. I have nothing against this company. I totally understand why they did to what they did. I don’t like the account anyway (hell yeah im sourgraping so what?!). It’s like fishing on a pond with a bad bait. Huh! (If you don’t get it, don’t try)

Then morning comes, we are fidgetting on our seats. We know what judgement they’ll gonna pass to us. But we’re hoping against hope that they’ll gonna change their minds. But alas! They still want us to go because…. Nothing heard to whatever reason that was said… as to why we’re gonna be out.

 WHY is it that it’s more depressing to leave this company than the rest? I think it’s because of my love to my teammates and friends (matti- mateo generoso & miss ana- bitsung?, the minty-fresh environment of the office only on Mondays, the close to home set-up, good vibes with every person there– living and those that are NOT-living. LOL! hallaveet (youll get me, if you work here)

 I am also saddened to the fact that I was not able to help the company or to the city’s first callcenter company. It is just sad that all my passion to help and my effort didnt yield. Again, I have nothing against the company. It was just– plain– badluck… our baits did not fell on those hungry fishes. Damn!

To those who got hired. GOODLUCK!  xoxoxoxoxox               

 me, ana, and matt (el tres huebos) 

back from my “vacation leave”

January 26, 2010

LOL! i am sooo lucky i have had the “a-very-long vacation leave”. OK OK i got the job again…  Matti visited me last Friday morning and informed me that I have been asked to work again. i was like keeping my cool… forcing myself not to smile - or jump when he said that. I still hafta tell my hubby to what he thinks about it. HE said ok that easy because he will enjoy the cable by himself…. WHAT is it with men and balls??? I cant watch my oprah, martha, and lifestyle network anymore when he’s there! he owns the remote, nver letting go. Basketball, tennis, and basketball. grrrrr. 

i am back again! woohhooooo. but its not the same- as it was before. Ana did not show up- she said shes waiting for the hospital to call her and that she have to focused herself on her nursing career. I admired her for that.  I told her before that i am not gonna go back, but HERE i am again. Cant help it. I just miss annoying customers over the phone.

I really dont have a direction in my life. I just go where the road leads me to without a map. this is stupidity, i know–  but i think i am ok, with my hubby around, IT IS kinna-romantic. I just hoped that there is a sign board showing that i am going dead end though before I crash or fall over the cliff. then i dont know what to do. im thinking about doing it all over again. i am a very patient person– but time isnt. damn! i am getting older. not much ‘amazing things’ happened, yet. 

 this is like a container of thoughts. free-flowing thoughts of nothingness and dramas. i can leave anything here that is not needed- ill just go back to this crap when i want to reminisce. i love this… blog thing. It soothes me. who created this? he’s a genius.

 have you ever thought of running away and never turn your back? i did, just for a half-day though. WELL– I got hungry. I remembered… m ahahaha.

when i was younger- i am a rebel at heart (self-proclaimed). i mean- I just ran to the hills until i dont see any roads that would lead em to me. just lay on the knee-high grass watching the sky.. or climb that sampaloc tree beside the river — relishing the moment with mother nature. Dont care if theyre looking for me. I will always — make me good memories. So yes, I have the best childhood memories I known. Its not about Disney World or had a bike. Its connecting yourself with GOD. that certain energy… that spirituality thats within me. the sand on my butt, watching the sunset. or floating on some cold, slow river watching the vastness of the heavens and the wondrous dark green elements on the mountain.Twas the best feeling of content, gratefulness, and everything, that is, nice.

everything that you DID passionately, with yourself… that first time– you will always remember how it feels. it felt good everytime. I am grateful that I did what I did.

 but now, i dont do that anymore. i am an old person- and old person had a lot of problems, and responsiblities. and that would also include arthritis, easily get tired, and laziness. LOL

  gotta go- lunch break almost over. CIAO!

“…Where were you while we were getting high?” 

Team SPN - d’HERricanes

DOTA

May bago na palang heroes sa dota. Para bang tukso… Lagi akong tinatawag ng aking isipan– ito ang aking nakikita pag ako’y napapikit… napaligo… napaluto… napabihis… …. dota dota dotaaaaaa…..

 Ano ba ang meron sya…? DOTA? anong meron ka? Bakit ako’y hindi napapagod sayo? na dapat ako’y napasuka na at napahilik pagkatapos ko na ng trabaho ko sa harap ng computer higit sa sampung oras…

 dota…. dotaaaa….

WORK! WORK! WORK!

Para bang ang hirap gumising para pumasok.

dudugo dugo ilong… mata at tenga ko pag ako’y nasa ikalawang araw sa linggo ng aking pagtatrabaho sa call center.

Gustuhin ko man makatulong sa kustomer ngunit ikaw’y walang magawa…

lahat na ng lakas ko’t utak ginamit ko na - ngunit parang ako’y  tanga pa rin at isang dakilang bobo. haay! 

Ang hirap pa rin matulog sa araw… lalo na kung ang cute mong husband ay gising at laging nagpapacute pag nagising ako sa init or sa ingay ng kapitbahay. Lagi lang sya nakatingin at hinahaplos ang aking likod habang sya’y nanonood ng basketball, na inis na inis ako sa referi sa mga gago nyang tawag.

Natatawa ako minsan sa kanyang kakulitan, sadya nya akong gisingin para sya ay pansinin. Gosh! ang lalake na to! nakakainis! Pero naintindihan ko sya dahil - ako ay cute! NAHH! jowk - dahil sa sya’y malungkot at walang magawa.

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S a t t i  !

What the heck?! I miss satti. wala akong mabilhan dito sa manila. may nakita ako sa may gil puyat pero, nasa jeep ako nun, weird naman pagbababa ako sa jeep, eh may pupuntahan hindi ko pa alam kung san yun. haay. lagi pa naman akong nawawala sa manila. magastos mawala.

Can anyone bring me this precious-moment-in-a-deep-plated-spicy-saucey-piece of sweetheart! m begging… huhuhuhuhuhu. MIsS going there (Jimmy’s) and buy me a pecho and 10 beef sticks with extra saucy sauce. yum!

que horror!

what about jinns??

Their existence: 

 The Jinn are beings created also with free will, living on earth in a world parallel to us. The Arabic word Jinn is from the verb ‘Janna’ which means to hide or conceal. Thus, they are physically invisible from man as their description suggests. This invisibility is one of the reasons why some people have denied their existence. However, (as will be seen) the affect which the world of the Jinn has upon our world, is enough to refute this modern denial of one of Allah’s creation.

Their abilities:  

What distinguishes the Jinn from mankind, are their powers and abilities. Allah has given them these powers as a test for them. If they oppress others with them, then they will be held accountable. By knowing of their powers, we can often make sense of much of the mysteries which go on around us. One of the powers of the Jinn, is that they are able to take on any physical form they like. Thus, they can appear as humans, animals trees and anything else. Over the last few years the interest in the subject of aliens and UFO’s has become heightened. Programmes such as the X-files and the Outer limits have increased the popularity of the theory that aliens exist. Thousands of people have sighted strange looking creatures all over the world. These sightings however, have still not proven substantially that aliens exist. Rather - and it seems more plausible all the sightings of such creatures were just Jinns parading in different forms. So the next time you see something that looks like E.T, its most probably just a wicked Jinn trying to scare and confuse you!

The Occult: 

 Through their powers of flying and invisibility, the Jinn are the star in occult activities. Voodoo, Hoodoo, Black magic, Poltergeists, Witchcraft and Mediums can all be explained through the world of the Jinn. Likewise, so can the illusions and feats of magicians. Because the Jinn can traverse huge distances over a matter of seconds, their value to magicians is great. In return for helping them in their magic, the Jinns often ask for the magicians to sell their souls to them and even to Iblis. Thus the magicians take the Jinn and Iblis as lords besides Allah.

 In our day, some of the feats performed by magicians and entertainers are without doubt from the assistance of the Jinn. Making the Statue of Liberty disappear, flying across the Grand Canyon and retrieving a ship from the Bermuda Triangle, have all been done by the Jewish magician David Copperfield. There is NO way that a man could do such things without the assistance of the Jinn. It would not be surprising therefore, if David Copperfield had sold his soul to Iblis himself. Because of their involvement with the Jinn, and its result in shirk, the Prophet (salAllahu alayhi wasalam) said: “The prescribed punishment for the magician is that he be executed by the sword”. Some may argue that this is barbaric, but if, the likes of David Copperfield truly had powers, then they could just put their heads back on again!!

…. Invitation to Islam, issue 4, January 1998

http://www.geocities.com/mutmainaa/belief/jinn.html

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The Prophet said, “Cover your utensils and tie your water skins, and close your doors and keep your children close to you at night, as the Jinns spread out at such time and snatch things away. When you go to bed, put out your lights, for the mischief-doer (i.e. the rat) may drag away the wick of the candle and burn the dwellers of the house.” Ata said, “The devils.” (instead of the Jinns).

Sahih Bukhari Volume 4, Book 54, Number 533

Narrated Jabir bin ‘Abdullah:

Three illustrations of Djinn from the 16th century

This specialist told dad she foresaw there’ll be jinns traveling on a boat and carry diseases over the land. “They travel on boats?” I thought. Scary… knowing that they will do anything to harm us, like traveling boats for one (LOL). I thought they work alone.

They are described as having been created from fire, like us from dust, and the angels from light. They believe to be responsible in mental illness also. Gosh.

 In Dad’s side of the family, we were to believe that the first two children will have “kambal” or twin in English. This twin is a jinn. They dont have to look the same as the other, or with the same attitude. It was believe to have been born the same day from the same mother.

 Mine a big man with an attitude (well, that whats our aunt whos third eye’s open say, she’s also being ‘assigned’ to keep or communicate with all of our family’s kambal). They don’t have to look like their person. They’re called twin because it was born when the person was born. My twin sometimes possesses me, if that’s weird enough- my mom would say that my face changes. Gosh, I hoped she’s joking. Well anyway, my lil bro do have one, too. She [his kambal] has tiptoed walk. When she possess him, he would have tiptoe-ish walk. Kinna weird huh? In order for them not to bother us. We cook a special food for them. Turmeric rice steamed in Coconut milk and hard-boiled eggs. Sometimes offer them new clothes.

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Blogging while working

It is fun to take a little spice into your boo-ring career.

See… I have a friend who happens to love confucius wisdom phrases and sentences,, mentioned to me - she said

“If you’re happy then you are not working”.

 When that was presented to me- my brain would immediately run like hell, trying to grasp what the wisdom-er is talking about. I thought that - only that if you are not working then you are happy. like the recess [favorite subject of almost all people I know], afterwork istambarirays [ I don’t - drink … though but i am a chronic 2nd hand smoker that always love to grab the mic from the drunk co-worker at stage] and etc.

But then again, I was corrected. It simply means - if you like, [LOVE], your job - then you are actually not working. The only job that I wanted, would fit on the description, was working about whale sharks - taking pictures while swimming beside it then publish it on the National Geographic mag. Now that is a career… uhm LIFE i mean! That is the one - MAJOR - reason why I took up Biology in Ateneo in Zamboanga on my first ever college [2nd college choice - Physical Therapy].

Anyway, It is freaking cold in here, with sniffle sounds from my coworkers keeps me alive and awake.

Constant picture of Lex Luthor in my mind tells me to finish my work so I would drool over him later.

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