I think I AM going insane!

I almost forgot what it feels like to have experience such an unusual state in my mind again after 15 years, i think. I would always say that we can control our minds, and that we are limitless, and that we are beyond what we think we are. I think that it is still- what Happen to me yesterday was just a glitch on my system.

When I was younger, I have this episodes flashing in my mind. They diagnose it as a macropsia/micropsia. That I go big then sooo small. I thought it was normal before, like  having nightmares, the only problem is, it happens when you’re awake. I know what my body is doing, I even remember that i was sitting on a high chair made of rattan, or going downstairs, or watching my nanny scrubbing the floors. but my mind- is like playing a movie, and i was there watching… I can even feel what it wants me to see. It was pulling me bigger so fast and my senses got heightened too. like drops of rain that I never heard the first time, now its like a thud on every drop. Then I got so small, or was it everything got so big, that i can pass freely into my ear-pierced holes. so weird. 

 Just yesterday when I went to take a shower after  reading a book in bed for hours… It hit me again. I know how to control it- usually i just immersed my face into the pillow, or in that moment a towel, then it was gone. sitting in the bathroom stool, staring the walls,  I let it play. It was kinda insane cause It may become permanent, but since I was kinda  missng it. i let it play in my mind so i can describe it better later. no fear this time. I am ready. 

it was like i  was in a different dimension, an extreme dimension. Barely seeing the walls now, I was walking on the fluffy towel like a desert-wide then just space. Then another pull on my body that make me soo big- and the towel now size of the drop… to just float, on my fingers.