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i need pain
July 2, 2011
just woke up… and its- what? 10am. you think its great?! yeah its wonderful!
I hated waking up on alarms. have you tried changing alarm tones too? in the hopes that whenever you wake up it is easy, soothing or or — a word please? that is opposite to annoying.
It was like this for yearsss… well, mostly- weekdays.
Now that we are here in Cotabto City again, with Manny’s manageable business. I am so relaxed, I got so dependent to everyone… spoiled. and… I dont feel any pressure.
im not used to it. I need pressure! well, maybe next month - MONTH OF RAMAHDAN - i will be…
but today…
with my hands grasping my long starbucks tumbler (courtesy of a dear friend of mine back in Manila),
absorbing its warm against the passing cold breeze from the morning
just sitting there - on the top open garden on top of the apartment building that Manny’s family owns.
realizing i am lucky, again.
We have a nice view of the mountain. that some people would kill for. so nice. sweet. and … weak.
yes weak! yeah… not like the person who runs against heavy rain and wet streets almost every day. who stands on bus from point home to point work. who eats for 10 minutes and pee for 3. who talks ~8 hours a day and sleeps for 8 hours at most.
I am getting weaker…
ahahha.
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